Posted by: mommyinmotion | March 5, 2010

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do (a conversation with my scale)

Dear Scale,

Surely you have noticed that things are not the same between us anymore. I’ve searched for the right words to break this news to you for many weeks now. This isn’t easy- but neither are you. I am breaking up with you.

I could say “Let’s just be friends” but- let’s face it, you’ve never been a real friend to me. Sometimes you show me a number that makes me elated, I feel special and on top of the world. Other times you show me numbers that cause me to doubt myself and the hard work I am doing. These constant ups-and-downs just aren’t healthy.

Maybe I should say “I’m just not ready for a commitment right now” After all, the relationship we have had is so time consuming. I have a husband, two children, a full time job, volunteer work, hobbies, and friends. I can’t spend so much time each day thinking about you- or what you will “say” with each bite I eat or workout I do. I can’t keep stopping in to see you every day, sometimes two or three times a day. I’m just not in a place to be tied down with the type of commitment you have always wanted from me.

But really, the thing that sums it up is “It’s not you, it’s me” You haven’t changed. You’re a constant and always have been. But I have changed. I’ve grown, and I am ready to move on with a life that doesn’t include you. I don’t need the highs-and-lows that you have to offer. I don’t need you to prove to me that I am healthy. I have been on a journey of discovery, and this is the place where we need to take different paths.

I’m sure we’ll see each other from time to time. I’ll check in with you every month or so- to catch up. But for now, I think it’s best that you move out. So please, be ready to pack up and vacate the bathroom this evening. You can crash on the top shelf of the linen closet if you need a place to stay. There are some curtains and maternity clothes up there that you can hang out with.

Love,

Me

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 28, 2010

Motherhood Moments: February

The kids and I have been getting antsy with the cold weather, it’s no fun staying inside all the time! We’ve started taking walks together some evenings after work/school. Usually not for very long, just long enough to get outside for the last of the sunlight and run around a little bit!

I think that walking is just about the only thing I miss about Nevada. I didn’t have a car, so the kids and I would go walking together every day. When Sian started school Fiona and I would walk with him every day and again to go pick him up. If we wanted to go to the park- we walked. Go to the grocery store or dollar store? We walked. We were definitely healthier!

Both kids have always loved being outside, but I think Fiona just a little bit more than Sian. She’s always just had an absolute awe for the world around her. She’s definitely not a child that was meant to be cooped up inside all day- she’s got too much energy and curiosity for that! The only real downside to it is that it’s hard to walk for exercise when Fiona comes along. She stops every few steps to look at a rock, or a leaf, or flower. Sometimes she just stops to take in the sun or wind. It’s not a bad thing, though. And I guess that every now and then I need the reminder to just slow down and appreciate my surroundings!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 26, 2010

Bobcat Ceremony

We’ve been waiting for a Den meeting for all the Cub Scouts for awhile, because Sian and Donovan have been ready for their Bobcat badges since October. We finally had one tonight, and I am so proud of them. Both boys worked really hard, and they definitely deserve some recognition.

It wasn’t a huge ceremony (just our two scouts and one other) but it was something at least. It’s like pulling teeth to try and get anything done with the scouts at St. Patrick’s, especially for someone like me who has no real experience in this sort of thing. So I was glad that all my nagging paid off and they had the meeting!

Sian and Donovan were thrilled! They got their new badges, and we got them a camping kit and tiger necklace as little gifts to show them how proud we are of them. I can’t wait until they can sew on their Tiger Cub badges- that should be sometime in April!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 25, 2010

Best Compliment Ever!

I was talking to one of the gym members this morning about running late and how some days you just can’t get moving! We started discussing our goals, and she mentioned that she was surprised when she got here and didn’t see me on the treadmill. I told her I was taking a rest day- trying to listen to my body when my mind is telling em to push harder!

Then she said the most amazing thing to me. “You deserve a rest day. I see how hard you work, and it’s really paying off. Your face and your attitude just radiate health lately”

Wow. I feel so proud, happy, and even a little humbled right now. Here I am beating myself up for taking the time to let my body rest and recover- and it takes someone else to tell me what I should already know. My body needs and deserves rest. Training hard- and taking breaks when I need to, are making me a fit, happy, and healthy person.

Radiating health? That’s awesome!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 24, 2010

Officially registered…

…for my first 10K. I’m nuts. I know that I must be certifiably insane. That’s the only explanation, really. Why else would I attempt a 10K 3 weeks after my first 5k? But, today I mailed off my registration for the March 6th Run Through History 10K run/5K walk in Vicksburg, MS. You can find out about it here and here.

Despite the overwhelming feeling that I am going to die- I am actually looking forward to this a lot. I will be doing the run with my youngest sister, so I think it will be a fun chance for the two of us to hang out. Plus, since it’s a drill weekend for John with the guard- we’ll be spending the entire weekend with family.

We’re all going up Friday night, and the kids and I will spend the night with my parents. Saturday morning my sister and I will drive to Vicksburg with our mom, and Sian and Fiona will get to hang out with my dad. I’m looking forward to spending the rest of Saturday with my family and seeing some friends Saturday night. The Husband and I might even get to have a date- and it’s been awhile since that happened!

In preparation, I have been training my exhausted little legs off. My goal is to run it in one hour or less. Right now I am up to 4.5 miles, with an average of 41 minutes. So I am thinking that I just might be able to do this.

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 20, 2010

Love Out Loud 5K

My first race was last weekend, and my running has become a full blown addiction. It is also contagious! My mother has informed me that next weekend, she will be entering a 5K walk with my youngest sister and brother (they will be entering the 5K run) And, today Sian and Fiona entered their first race! John is working, so I had to sit on the sidelines as the cheering section, but they had a great time.

Sian entered the 1 mile Fun Run and placed 3rd in his age group! He was soooo excited. He’s been running around the house non-stop ever since, and is already asking when he can go run again. Fiona entered the 50 Yard Tot Trot and is really excited too. All the Tot Trot runners got medals at the finish line, and she has not taken hers off since! They both changed into their race day t-shirts as soon as we got home, and they have been racing each other around the house all afternoon! It looks like running addiction has definitely hit our family, and this Mommy couldn’t be more proud!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 18, 2010

#68-Organize the filing cabinet

#68- Organize the filing cabinet: goal met 2/17/10

I am sooooo happy to have this one officially done. It feels a lot better knowing that now I can find all the documents and paperwork that we need! I’ve been trying to get this done since we moved in August, but it just didn’t work out.

We have a computer desk that has a one drawer filing cabinet on it, and we have been using that to try and keep up with all our important documents, paperwork, and bills. And that worked pretty well when we were a full time military family. There wasn’t as much to keep up with.

But now we have more to keep up with. John has two jobs (law enforcement and Air National Guard), and I have my work and personal training files to keep organized. Throw in school for both kids, mortgage paperwork, insurance paperwork, medical paperwork… suddenly my house seemed like it was one huge pile of papers, and I couldn’t find anything!

So last night I went to Walmart and got a new three-drawer filing cabinet, and I spent a couple of hours getting everything in place. It feels really good knowing that I can find things now!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 15, 2010

#98- Take One Day Just for Me

Goal Met 2/13/2010

I forgot to post that this goal was also accomplished! February 13th was not just the day I did my first race, it was also my “me day”. I got up early that morning to drive to Jackson, and John stayed home with Sian and Fiona. That morning I was able to visit with my parents, grandmother and sister before I went down to the race.

The race was an amazing experience, and something I did for myself. It’s something I have wanted to do for such a long time, but I kept putting my goals on the back-burner for other things in life. It felt awesome to make my goal and what I wanted a priority for once!

After the race I went shopping (I had a gift card burning a hole in my pocket) and finally got myself some new jeans. Size four- I can’t believe I am actually that small! All through high school I had this image of my ideal size being a 6. As a size 10 or 12- size six seemed so tiny- and four felt impossibly small.

When I was done shopping, I met up with an old friend for lunch, and it was great getting a chance to catch up with her. We have talked on facebook, but haven’t seen each other in six years! We were best friends for about 12 years, and slowly lost touch in our teens, and then once I got married and started moving all over it was impossible to see each other any more. It was great taking the time to visit with her!

I drove back to Meridian and spent the rest of the evening just hanging out with John. We watched movies and talked all night. All in all, it was an amazing day, and I am so glad that I did it!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine’s Day

Just wanted to wish everyone a happy Valentine’s day! We don’t usually make a huge deal out of this holiday, but we do make sure to get a little happy for the kids at least. Sian and Fiona also had presents from Nana, so they were excited about it!

I hope that everyone had a great day and got to spend it with loved ones!

Posted by: mommyinmotion | February 13, 2010

Rush to Brush 5K

#54- run a 5K race: Goal Met! 2/13/2010

This morning was my first official 5K race. I ran the Rush to Brush 5K in Jackson, MS. The plan was to go up last night and spend the night with my family. We had some unexpected snow and ice, though, and I was worried about driving.

I put off leaving until this morning, but I did manage to drag my butt out of bed at 5am and hit the road half-an-hour later. This is a pretty huge accomplishment for me, since I am not a morning person. At all.

Post-race. I've been smiling like that ever since!

I was really nervous about the race, I don’t normally run outside, and running outside, with the cold, and ice on the road- plus a LOT of hills had me very worried.

I did it though, and I did better than I thought I would! Racing is addictive, though. I am already looking for another 5k to run, and planning to start training for a 10k soon!

My official race time was 29:06. My goal was to do it in about 30 minutes, so I am pleased with that time! I came in 66th out of 127 runners, and 6th out of 11 in my age group. Not the best, but not the worst either. Middle of the pack is just fine by me!

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